Getting "Me" Back
According to my husband, I'm going through a quarter- life crisis. (2 years early). I'm having problems finding solace in where my career and work life are heading, and where I want it to be. I don't remember if I discussed it here, but back around my birthday in October I forfeited my only vacation (and the first as a married woman) for a big job interview, that ended up not materializing into the dream job I have been praying for. It left me pretty broken, because I had spent about a month going through the motions, gave up my vacay, and took off work (who were all too happy to put me back on the schedule). It left me broken as a wife because I have a strong sense of marital duty, and while I'm on my way to being a great housewife, its not how I envisioned my life. Much of American society functions off of dual incomes and I didn't see me as being any different. I WANT to pay the mortgage, or at least all of the utilities and shared resources. That's is nowhere near the case. Working in retail, how much you can work is dependent on how much you sell. Not selling= no payroll. No payroll= Whitney don't be workin alot y'all. And while my water still runs and the lights are on and my hubby is okay taking care of everything, I'm not. I'm not made to be a true housewife. I have to do SOMETHING and it has to be out of the house. I'm going to be that 75 year old lady at the CVS or school or whatever because I can't stand being home.
But stuck at home is where I often am so I picked up my Pinterest again, dusted it off and started doing what housewives do best: CHRISTMAS. Being that its our "first" Christmas, and in a new home to boot, I'm super excited to deck this place out (Thank you Dollar Tree Capitol Heights for getting me started). I also helped a friend putting together a charity fashion show by cranking out 3 brand new outfits, and utterly breaking in my basement studio, aka the Warzone. Hopefully I'll get pics up of these developments by weeks end, and really start utilizing you again, Blogspot. And maybe I'll figure out what I'm doing with my life in the meantime.
But stuck at home is where I often am so I picked up my Pinterest again, dusted it off and started doing what housewives do best: CHRISTMAS. Being that its our "first" Christmas, and in a new home to boot, I'm super excited to deck this place out (Thank you Dollar Tree Capitol Heights for getting me started). I also helped a friend putting together a charity fashion show by cranking out 3 brand new outfits, and utterly breaking in my basement studio, aka the Warzone. Hopefully I'll get pics up of these developments by weeks end, and really start utilizing you again, Blogspot. And maybe I'll figure out what I'm doing with my life in the meantime.
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